Look. You don't get it. We love you, so you're a god. Kanna's a god to me, so is Kamo. All my friends are. We know you aren't perfect. And you don't cooperate! We TRY to ask you what's wrong, and you just say "don't want to talk about it". We're afraid of getting pissed off ourselves and back off to let you have alone time to gather your thoughts, because that's what we think you want. But no! You want us to talk to you, but you refuse to talk! So what are we supposed to do, Sara? When you get in a bad mood, we never know what to expect! The most innocent of things-like changing what email I use with MSN-sets you off! So we're sorry we don't try to cheer you up, because you push us away. (Might I add, we always try anyway, but it never seems to work, does it?) I try to see it from your side-which always makes me feel like it's my fault. So will you try to see it from our side? We can tell you're in a bad mood, so we start pestering you so we can get to the root of it to attempt to help you solve it. But you don't like that either. So what are we supposed to do. You don't want us to try to help you, but you do? Perhaps you see it this way-me and Kanna are social. /Not/. I'm good with Kanna just because me and her are so alike that it's practically impossible to get into a fight. That's practically the only aspect of me and Kanna that you see. And I can't tell you why me and Kanna are so obsessed with you-I can't figure that out myself. We know you aren't perfect and we know you're human. We know you're the shy person in the corner. What makes us try to draw you out is that me and Kanna aren't shy people in the corner around each other-we want you to be more open with us. But we /are/ people in the corner when we aren't around each other. So, basically what I'm saying is that we don't know what to do when you get frustrated. We're socially stupid. And just from what little I know about you, you can't make up your mind. You act like you don't want us to be concerned about your happiness, but then earlier you said that you have to talk too! So then why don't you, Sara? And burden us once in a while! We always tell you our problems, because that's what friends do. But you never tell us what's wrong until it's too late and we've set you off. We want you to be Sara! It's what we try to promote! We aren't trying to make you hide Sara in a corner, we're trying to get her to talk to us so we understand her! We act like ourselves around you, so why can't you do the same? We aren't going to suddenly hate you because you aren't that perfect image we like to look at. I'm just now considering this myself, but perhaps we try to keep you perfect because we never see your flaws. You don't let us. And, reading back over what you wrote, you don't understand! What do you think we're doing when we try to get you to talk? We're trying to cheer you up! You keep saying that it can't be as easy as "what's wrong" because we never consider that option. What are the first two things I ask you normally? What's up, and how are you? If I think you're in one of your moods again, I ask "what's wrong" and you sometimes start telling me. So I try to help you. What are we doing wrong? Honestly, Sara! I know I'm doing something wrong, but you aren't helping me find it. I told you you were making me in a bad mood so perhaps you'd fix it. I was showing you one of your flaws, and you immediately get defensive. So, perhaps you're the one trying to create that perfect image, and me and Kanna are the ones trying to get rid of it. And normally, when I'm done, I'll say that I'm wrong. And I'm sure that I'm wrong in your eyes. But in mine, you're the one at fault.

 

So, as my closing remark: Do you want us to help, or not? When we help, you don't want it, and when we don't, you want it.

If it weren't for my undeniably strong sense of sarcasm...I'd think you were talking about me. o.o

Or maybe my sarcastic side is taking over again. *nods* Oh well.